Showing posts with label husband. Show all posts
Showing posts with label husband. Show all posts

Friday, November 29, 2013

Holiday...

Tonight I am making a toast for you and me...

After three years this blog has become my map and my point of reference to my daily life. Because when I ask myself what did we do last year during the holidays and my answer was I need to look it up on the blog for a hint... it means this space has become pretty important. This is my virtual journal and it includes the many highs and the many lows... And among these entries there are many beautiful places, people and things I've seen and this year is coming to an end. 

I am so thankful for yesterday's feast. The potato salad and the ham. The sweet rolls and the margaritas. For the children that were playing and the adults that gather around the kitchen counter. For the after movie theater outing with three girls that were beautiful and funny. 

After all is said and done... 
After I have finished putting all the Tupperware away what I am most thankful for is... Time. Because I would be nothing without all these moments, people and places...

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Then the night fell and his face was so close to mine and he said... You are just so sweet.
I smiled with my eyes the same way I have done since I was five and I kissed him... 
With my eyes shut I kissed him thinking about the word... Sweet. 

At that moment I felt like vowing to always be sweet but then I thought about boundaries... Thresholds...Thin lines between things and I knew at times we need the spicy just not sweet.

Otherwise he would never have the need to get close to my face and reassure me that... 
I am sweet.

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Hope you are enjoying the start of this holiday season...




Monday, May 13, 2013

The Summer of Love...

Summer of 1999. That was supposed to be my summer. First time alone for two months without a care in the world. It had been years since I was alone for so long. I became a mom at a young age. The kid begged to go away with his dad for 2 months that summer... I obliged.  Quickly the summer became everything. The space and time where I could be whatever I wanted to be.

But it became my summer of love...





 We met and it was never meant to happen. That night I had a date with another boy.  A boy that held much promise since he was kind and good looking. As I was to walk out the door to meet the "date" he (now husband) placed a toe ring on my bare feet right after we met. Not used to wearing a toe ring all I could do during my "date" was stare at my feet and think about the boy I had just left behind. The ring felt as if it held some type of magnetic force and my toes kept tingling. Right there on my second toe I had been chained.

Needless to say my "date" with the Latin boy lasted 60 minutes they were timed by my watch and a few beats from Fatboy Slim. I ran back almost breathless to find him where I had just left him. Right there I proclaimed with a  big smile I am back. That was fast- he replied. Still catching my breath all I could do was smile. A week after that fateful meeting we became a family. We ignored the whispers, the talks and fourteen years later here we are...

On May 9th my husband and I celebrated our 14th anniversary. He walked me to a Savannah bridge where the Parisian custom of locking a lock and throwing away the key lives. We couldn't make it to Paris but somewhere in time in another dimension we did. In that moment Savannah became foreign to me. No longer chained we are now locked.






Mother's Day.

I have three kids but the one in the middle stole my heart on Mother's Day. Maybe because of her age . Maybe because she loves me. She gave me the best Mother's Day a kid could have given. Breakfast in bed. hugs and kisses and a stage performance.



On Instagram LtoR 1.The Show Oklahoma! 2. Breakfast 3. Oklahoma! 4.Baby M. and Me. 5. Sunflower 6.Thespian.




Hoping your weekend was sweet... Happy new week friends.


Monday, April 29, 2013

The South...



The days are flying by and summer is upon us in Savannah, GA. The days are longer and with all the sunlight more opportunities to photograph my surroundings. On a daily basis I fall in love with photography. Every time I get that one image that feels as if I took the brush to a canvas. Capturing that fleeting moment gives me such satisfaction. A moment that otherwise would be lost in time. Because I am addicted to my surroundings and all of the beauty that I see.


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*Savannah Sidewalk Art festival is one of my favorite art festivals. Artists creates exquisite pieces of art which today are gone. Chalk art taken to another level.  Like Buddhists monks they create these beautiful pieces that are just for a moment in time.


Colors so bright and intense and this is the moment that I realize I am way too fast and impatient to be a painter. It is now that I want to capture all of it. I want it to be with ease and fluidity and  my hands could never move fast enough.

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Just as my brain begins to wrap itself around all the colors and surroundings just as I am beginning to feel the breeze, the sun and all of this art... history shows up and slaps me on the face. A war that saw the end of slavery and the downfall of a southern planter aristocracy.



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There wasn't a family in the South that did not lose a son or brother or father.



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It was the birth of a new freedom...
The most necessary, horrible and heroic conflict this nation has ever witnessed.



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I felt as if I was falling down the rabbit hole with so much pain and sadness yet glad to be here in the year 2013. I return to meet with my tribe and there she was smiling so big. Right there in the middle of the Historic District in Downtown Savannah...



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The place where once her father and I would not have been possible to be.


Happy Monday peeps.


Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Not Hemingway...

On Monday I was extremely excited and I announced all over Facebook how I was done and over my adobe colored walls in the sun-room. I had found a new color and I bought the Aloe color. A cool, tranquil color that was supposed to relax me into a state of oblivion all while it would make my space airy and jovial. A color that reminded of the ocean at mid-morning in South Beach. A color that held so much promise. I thought of Hemingway and his Key West house and the color seemed to be one of my greatest ideas.

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The expectations of the paint color could now be considered as the worst decision I have made thus far in our marriage.  Not only does he hate the color I hate it as well. The room looks cold not cool and sterile not airy. Reminds me of  the operation room I was in during my last C section.




Maybe I should have thought of make up since during the early 80's when I was learning to apply makeup I was boxed in the Autumn category. All shades of orange, bronze, eggplant, gold and yellow. I wanted to be a Winter girl so badly, all cool and collected.  Autumn was assigned to me
by the pages of Cosmo and the color test it had on the pages that season. I took my colors and the season and with much resignation I accepted the hues of the Autumn harvest.


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instagram freak @adrianairis


Now I no longer stand in front of the walls and wonder the many reasons as to why the cool color did not blend in. I, that is a bit more like Hank Moody than Ernest Hemingway. I, the fiery Latina that can longer deny her wild spirit and should express it with warm colors. I no longer pretend to be a Winter or Summer girl.



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I will spend the weekend with those walls in hopes like some say I might grow into it but my decisiveness and stubborn soul knows a thing or two about wait and sees...

In the meantime we blow bubbles, we clean up and spruce up. All in the name and in search of a peaceful lazy summer season even if it doesn't include the color of Aloe.


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So have you ever chosen a hideous color? How did you fix it or did you just live with it?

Happy Midweek.

Monday, March 18, 2013

In The Meantime...

The weekend went by and I kept fertilizing all of these dreams that I am trying to turn into reality. I am hungry and ready to work hard. I am focused and have kept so much restrain. Trying to keep myself tamed I dig my fingers into the earth and I plant.


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I open the ground with my own hands. I let my hands get real dirty and I wish...
I wish as if I was Jack and his Beanstalk. I pray for growth and development.
I tell myself little rhymes as I sow each seed.
Little rhymes that become prayers to all nature folk and spirits.
I let the earth ground me and guide me... I let the soil heal my soul.

Because I want it all...

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I want to be home but I want to conquer the world.
I want you in my arms but at times I feel its too close.
I want to be lost but in your bed where the sun rises.



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In the meantime I continue to snap pictures that paint some of the things I see.
In the meantime I will tap these keys...



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Have a great new week peeps...




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Wednesday, February 13, 2013

February 13th...

There are flowers on my bedsheets and polka dots on my silky gown.
There is cigarette smoke dancing with the nag champa frolicking in the pink morning light.
There are many bubbles on our equally pink drink and we look at each other and we smile.

We smile because we are not supposed to be having this much fun after 14 years.
We smile because we are not supposed to lust after each other as much.
We smile because we are not supposed to be celebrating Valentines day... today is the 13th.

There are berries and a lace window curtain dancing in the air.
There is a girl thinking of writing poetry so she scribbles words on her thigh.
There are neighbors walking their dogs unaware of what had just happened and we smile.




 Happy Valentines Day!





Sunday, February 3, 2013

About being a sheep...

Sunday Poetry...

I went to the doctor and he said to me it is time.
Time for what I wondered.
To remove everything that makes you a woman he said.
Then I thought of the time when I was bamboozled to tie the tubes that carry
my precious eggs.

Because it was the murmurs of friends and family.
It was the age factor they said.
How I have expired like the milk in your fridge.
It was the bills that continued to run through the front door of this small house.

I allowed the fools to climb up the walls sneaking in through my bedroom window.
I grabbed a needle and tattooed the word guilty on my forehead.
I wanted everyone to see it.

Within my insides I was changed.

Now a sheep I know I let them break my heart and my body.
For their sake.

Now a sheep I tell you...
You are not taking anything else away.


FAQ's

1. While Tubal ligation and hysterectomy can at times be selective procedures. Now I know I was forced to make some rushed decisions. Always follow your heart and medical advice for life threatening conditions.

2. About 80's leggings. Many of you came to defend the 80's leggings and I too am guilty.

3. Who' the rock star on the last post? Lead singer to the band Cusses a local Savannah,GA Rock band.

Instagram Freak....




Hope you are enjoying your weekend. Will be back tomorrow with a sponsored post.
Stay sweet peeps and enjoy Super Bowl Sunday.

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Blonde Ambition...

For some reason the age becomes cloudy almost ghost like in my head and for some reason I don't remember my kid brother being there, being part of my story , but better yet I can't remember my older brother either. Which means this is MY story.

I must have been seven or maybe eight but I could definitely have been only five since I was always told I was precocious. I was told I was the type of girl that could understand lots without much explanation.

 It could have been because my mother by profession a beautician she had her salon in the back of our house and one of the windows of my bedroom would coincidentally be a part of such salon. I knew a lot about men and the neighborhood and the ladies that would clutch hard unto their pearls. That window taught me more than all my years in college would ever teach me.

Early on I learned that although women are often described as fickle more fickle were the men and the opposite gender would always be a mystery. I also learned that promises were really hard to keep. I learned about good hair and the extremes that some women would go through to be who they think they should be.

Growing up in the 70's my mother had dark red hair enviable by the most expensive of Bordeaux. Deep and lovely was that color to the point I thought my mother was a natural born red head. I remember her one afternoon wearing an Indian caftan in peacock blue that had silver threads running through and the sun was setting in our Caribbean island and her hair appeared to have been on fire. She looked at me that afternoon as she raised one of her perfectly penciled eyebrow and said to me " Love I will be right back."


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One of the few color photos of the red hair I have... top right that would be me as a baby.


I saw her flowing gown disappeared to the back of the house as she walked into her beauty salon and the door closed shut.

Two hours later she reappeared and she was now a blonde.

The shock what happened? Who was she?

Two days later I was told to wear my yellow dress the one that I would wear when we had somewhere important to be. I dab some perfume as she was teasing her now blonde mane. She chose a bright red lipstick and a black blouse with gold accessories. We drove for what seemed like a few minutes and we arrived to a large building close to the beach that housed many of the yuppies on the island. Near a beach and equipped with gyms and large mirrors. A gated community of apartment buildings for the creme de la creme.

She stood stoically on the balcony of the apartment smoking her Benson and Hedges and drinking her Licor 43 with milk and cinnamon. She shoos me away and I begin to run up and down the halls of the fancy building. During one of my runs I spot a blonde dress in black with gold accessories her nails showed me quickly it was not my mother as she waved her cigarette in the air and laughed the loudest.

My mother had the hands of a woman that scrubbed and washed for a living.

Suddenly I see those perfectly manicured hands caress the face of my father as she exhales her cigarette smoke she leans in and kisses my father. It is then the moment I realized why my beautiful mother is now a blonde.


I ran back to her and she was standing still with cocktail in hand. I ran back to profess my love for her. It is then when I decided I would never be a blonde.

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Dark Hair Power ;)



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One None Blonde



Hope your weekend thus far is glorious... Stay Sweet.




Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Spring Preview...

While half of the country is under snow and winter weather chaos we have enjoyed a Spring preview. Sunny skies and warm breezes and the need to pull out our flip flops. I splashed some polish on my toes quickly because Mother Nature decided to throw us a surprise party and I was not ready. Getting over the worst cold season I've experienced in years but the weather lured us outside and even with a head that feels like is under water all that sunshine begs for attention.

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A walk and a cup of French Onion soup did the trick by the time we got home inspiration had struck and the Spring cleaning started earlier than expected. Something about purging things you don't need bring energy to a space making it feel renewed.

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I love this perfect curl.

French Inspired...

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One day I will live and write in the South of France. One day I will photograph the buildings, the streets, the cafes and markets. One day I will run through a lavender field. One day I will watch countless of sunsets barefooted while sipping on wine and like a cat in heat I will turn around to him and say 'Je t'aime but until then from the south of the US of A ... I wish you a great week.


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Instagram Freak...

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Monday, December 3, 2012

The Sweet Life...

I am struggling with words tonight but it is a new week and somehow I have to document. We are breathlessly drunk by each other at the moment and enjoying everything the holiday and Savannah, GA has to offer but something about this time of the year that is quite liberating.

I try to tie all loose ends, make mends and resolve any and all issues before the new year begins and if such tasks are not completed I move on. I move on because there is only so much we can try to fix because I have learned to pick my battles. January 1st should be a blank piece of paper one eager to be filled with sweet things.

Savannah's winter is mild but even with a mild winter I try to enjoy the outdoors early before the winter really hits us.

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Savannah, GA Festival of Lights

The dead of winter is the time to retreat perfect for staying in writing poetry about Spring and Summer. Listening to music and revisiting the masters of literature.

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Smores


Because in the dead of winter light seems to escape me as quickly as I notice it. Taking amazing pictures is trickier and time consuming.


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At this moment the girl with thousands of words is struggling to fill this empty page. I wish I could fill them up with kisses from my new lipstick shade and all the colors of the rainbow. But if you stick around I might come back with stories, drawings, songs even poetry.

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The closest we get to snow.




Because I am a wild child, a rebel, a believer of the moon, black cats all while wearing glitter and stars in my eyes.


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The monkey that jumped on my husband at the festival ;)


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Happy Monday peeps...

Friday, June 15, 2012

Summer Lovin'...

I love every season and to each I have written love letters but I am above all a summer child. The summer season and I will be eternal lovers. I love each storm, each sunset and the long days that settle into magical nights. Each summer storm comes with an excuse to cuddle up in some corner near a window opening a book and read.

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We are watching the sunsets and chasing the shadows as the days go by. The watch has been left behind since school is out and we tell time when our bodies tell us to switch from lemonade to wine. The summer keeps seducing me with concerts in the park, walks by the river and moonlight swimming. I continue to dab orange and grapefruit oil on my neck hoping that it will stick on my girls' memories forever.


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 When they are in their 20's standing somewhere... anywhere on a summer afternoon and suddenly the smell of orange and all the yummy citrus fills up the air they can remember me and all of our lazy summers.


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I met him during the summer season and at first I thought this was my reason for falling for him so  quickly.
Thirteen Midsummer's night later we are still going strong and this weekend is all about him...
The man that was happy to love and raise my son.
The man that gave me my two daughters.
The man that takes me just the way I am...

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Because a father's job is not just about sticking around and paying the bills. A father's job is to equally love, nurture and nourish their children. As our society moves forward in a progressive manner gender roles and even the role of a father has shifted. I celebrate him for his involvement and patience. It is he that has given me the ability, the space and the time to have it all. I am mother, a student, an artist, a wife, a friend and countless other things and I can be all that I want to be because of him.
Because there is no guilt or children that prefer one over the other we are a team.





Happy weekend and Happy Father's Day peeps!


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Please stay sweet...

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Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Chaos Theory...

Maybe I should start doing these blog posts bit by bit. I get overwhelmed with life and writing and I hate being consumed in just one dimension or facet of my life. So I move around.  Anyone that knows me "in real life" says I am random. We can be talking about one thing but I have so much to say that I move on... To another conversation.... One that we probably had a month ago but we are back to it... I, then will move us to another conversation to one that we had the month prior to that causing this randomness. Scientist call these patterns the Chaos theory so I tell myself  it is not so random.

About Chaos Theory
Today is our wedding anniversary.
We said we do while I was 13 days away from the birth of our first daughter.
I figured anyone who wishes to marry me looking the way I did must be in love or crazy.
Neither reason sounded dull so I said I do.
While we were broke and stupid, scared and nervous.
We said we do. While I wore a maternity shirt from Kmart and a pair of flip flops from Forever 21.

I said... I do.

We exchanged silver bands that were made for us by a lapidary man. A man that charged us 12 dollars for each silver ring. My husband still wears his and I keep mine in a treasure box. My ring is too big for my fingers although it could be a special toe ring for the big toe only though. I love that ring and its a reminder of what he saw in me. As a photographer and at one point an ordained minister I've seen my share of weddings but I never saw a man more in love with his bride. At the Chatham County court house with a secretary and the custodian as our witnesses. No one we personally knew was a part of it. No maid of honors, bachelor parties or girls gone wild. No tossing of the bouquet or champagne toasts.

Many times we have thought about recreating the "real" wedding. A wedding with the pretty pictures where friends and families gather like the ones that I have photographed. A wedding to show those that doubted our love the dedication we have for each other and to our family. But something about marrying my southern boy in a courthouse while knocked up not a soul around to judge us made it very real. When he said his vows to me there was no ambivalence and such randomness can't be recreated...


Happy midweek peeps... Stay Sweet!